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posted : Thursday, February 16, 2012
title : My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations.
What does it take to be good enough? Why doesn't everyone pay attention? How hard is this? Will this get any worse? People tend to care less about those who look up to them and like them, but notice more of those that hate on them. Or is it just me. 2012 has been such a crazy year so far and I'm barely surviving through the first few weeks of school. I'm not even talking about the emotional stuff and unnecessary stress, what I have right infront of me is already enough. I need to buy time. There's just so much to be done. And I'm doing such weird and random things, eg blogging on the day before amaths ct. As if I'm even half prepared. I know complaining/venting your anger isn't good, and I try to be grateful and accept things. But.....this blog post is really defeating the purpose of trying to be strong and overcoming all odds cos I can't face them alone.
I don't even know how to paragraph my words and sort them in order now cos there's a jumble of things in my mind now. And to those that still read my blog, I'm sorry if I haven't been blogging when people like huda etc actually still blogs about me, so touched. So many things I wanna do yet there's not even enough time to sleep/eat. Wonder if I'm even up to standard to be a monitress. So much more thoughts but I can't possibly tell you everything that's in my mind cos some things are just not meant to be told. Oh and I know why the society's so screwed up and judgmental now. Cos we live in a fast-paced and competitive world so everyone's trying to be better that we don't even have time to stop and 'think'. "People used to talk to their neighbours and communicate with one another actively. But now, we barely even know our neighbours and are too busy with our own lives." something that my dad told me which kinda inspired me. I miss the old times. All I hope for is to not crumble and fall. I'm just trying my best, really. Have you seen me being this tough ever before? |