hiiiiiiiii it's 21:34 now and since 7pm i have been thinking too much and just thinking all sorts of nonsense. things i shouldn't spend too much time thinking about anyway 'my thoughts are stars i cannot fathom into constellations' this is probably the 5th time i'm quoting this phrase idk.


anyway really scared for thursday. o level chinese results day. i don't want to go into all the 'what ifs' but i can't guarantee i'll do well. and that shouldn't be the case during psle i was really confident after each paper :( i miss that confidence i used to feel.

and #1 weakness i have: i tend to shun things i want.
     #2 i avoid feeling hurt by the truth by not believing it which hurts more.

i need to stop feeling so _________

WHAT I NEED TO FOCUS ON: 
-to prove people wrong
-to show my worth
-to show people i can do it too
-to do well and get good results
-to aim high(already done so and i have a target in mind) and all that's left is to work extremely hard towards it, which would need lots of motivation, determination and perseverance.




on a side note, weakness #3 i get jealous really easily.