sigh FEEL SO UNMOTIVATED AND HOPELESS THESE FEW DAYS what's gotten into me?!??!??!???? restricting myself from tweeting because there are people reading those and i don't know who to confide in and rant to because i don't think anyone is worth my time and i would just be a nuisance to them so as well just keep everything inside me BUT THE BOTTLE IN MY HEART IS FULL and if i were to remain anymore silent i would just kaboom and explode and then guess what yup everything would be all over the place because....when things explode the content burst out yeah. how do i look forward to a packed wednesday and thursday HOW if things were still the same, i would have talked to you and everything would be muuuch better. but now i just don't dare to have too much faith. or maybe i need some. just a little.. how much is a bottle of faith?









and i really feel like i'm losing myself. i'm losing my cool. not the hipster and happening kind of cool but....my composure. YES that's the word. composure. i am losing control of myself and things just don't seem to fall in place recently. w h y everything was perfectly fine just last week. w    h     yyyyyy