sigh back on my blog once again after months because it's a night where i feeeeeeel too much.
it's been a really good day though :) finally understood sequences and series yay thanks to ky who explained everything to me.
but can't avoid the fact that i've been missing my dear friends so so greatly since january..... since all of us went to different schools. feel very distant and detached, and hate this feeling.
feel like i'm stuck in the past and can't find myself amidst the crowd (of new faces)
sighhhhhhh really miss how things have changed so drastically and quickly and days with those you can trust and hold close to are gone (hopefully as of now)

and even when i meet my friends after a long time it just passes by transiently, and then i spend nights and days missing them again, looking forward to the next meet up. can't seem to get enough of them.

I'M SO INCOHERENT i just miss everyone a lot and it gets lonely here, and sometimes i'm not good at expressing my feelings or love for you my friends but you're special to me and i would never find better friends than you all.

i hope no one ever feels inferior, hope all my friends are doing well <3

don't know how to show yall that y'all matter a great deal to me because sometimes i do things that contradict my thoughts and my actions might come out wrong from what i imagined them to and haiz, life isn't a bed of roses